Kylo Ren's face

WHEN SOMEONE SHIPS THAT ONE SHIP THAT YOU JUST WANT TO SINK SOOO BAD

*grits teeth*

Let's just freakin' talk about this ...

There just giving him the throne. He's in no frame of mind right now, YOU FREAKS. He was just told he was a FrostGiant, dad fainted right in front of him, Thor's gone, and BOOM.

"Guess what, buddy, you're king! Don't do anything bad because that's what you are now, yah know, LONG LIVE THE KING!"

Morons.

Kylo Ren needs a post

*SPOILERS AHEAD WOOT WOOT*

(at least I warned you, right?)


HOoooooooooo boy.

Whelp.

I watched Star Wars: The Force Awakens because I was the most beautifully patient person on this planet and WAITED UNTIL IT CAME OUT.

YESHHHH.

Clear to say, I have slight bragging rights. Slight. Itty bitty bragging rights.

Eh.

But, far to say, I was surprised and thrilled. Adore every moment of it. Thank you Disney for not ruining all our hopes and dreams, THANK. YOU.

*starts screeching When You Wish Upon A Star*

So.

 I have this slight propensity to ... *ahem* ... like zee bad guys.

And when I mean "like" I mean, if they have emotional problems and a pretty face, YES, I will love them and hug them and feed them Poptarts, AND DEFEND THEM WITH MY EVERY WAKING BREATH. (pretty face is optional, Tom Hiddleston has the most disgustingly gross, inhuman, diabolically perfect face on this green planet, so yeaaaahh...)

Enter Mr. Anger-Management Solo.

Come on, he's dark and tall and has a freaky helmet and a fiery lightsaber, what is not to love? (not to mention the stompy black boots! BLACK BOOTS ARE MY WEAKNESS *SOBS ANGRILY*)

No.

I hate his guts.

I really do.

You thought this was going to be fangirly, DID'NT YAH?

Well, someone beat the drums and give it up for moi.

I hate his freakin' guts.

And his face.

UGH.

However ... I am also smitten.

*wild goat screams in back from my friends who knew it all along*

Did I already mention the weakness I have for villains? Yea, yea, well, it just got so much worse, mah friends...

  I think he's at the stage Anakin was in the third episode. He wants good, he can't escape darkness. He wants to lash out in anger and loss, he wants to be at peace even more.

"I want to be free from this pain."

What pain? Is he merely bitter at Han for not being there? Is he fighting and struggling against the pull he feels to both the Dark and the Light? What makes this guy tick?

(that last one was a bad question ... *snorts* because someone could sneeze and he'd beat up some tech, it's hilarious and frightening)

 The battle stance, skill, technique he used is incredibly brutal, much like Anakin's after he was turned over. But I think he's trying twice as hard, to reach this goal he's set for himself. He's a raving maniac of power and anger, that's evident.

But what goal?

 "...grandfather"  
                              
What did Anikan start? He was seduced by the Dark side, but what happened first? Anakin was out to destroy it, the Sith and Lord Sidious. Out to destroy the Dark side, out to conquer what he could not possibly conquer. No one, sole person could, even if your the strongest Jedi or Sith, even if the Force is with you.

And that's the major point with Anakin, he wanted to do it himself. Pride had already taken over, and he was the easy and the most valuable target to get at. Also, tragically, the most powerful.

Why couldn't Kylo Ren be the same? Perhaps that is why he idolizes Vader.

Read this already, it's just too good.

Notice, Han calls him Ben, his given name. And yet the First Oder knows him as Kylo Ren.
Anakin was turned into Darth Vader. There's a separation, from the Light to Dark, that's taken, even to changing identity, because the Dark side does destroy. Remember Kylo's bitter, "He was weak and foolish, like his father. So I destroyed him."?

 But what did "Will you help me?" mean? Did Solo know something no one else did? Was Kylo only bluffing until the sun had gone out, just staling them all? It doesn't seem as if he is. He looks conflicted, scared. This scene did it for me, because the light fades out and he's suddenly reminded of all he has to do, for the darkness. And Han warns him. "Snoke will use you and then he'll crush you,", and he knows.

Kylo knows it, he's not blind. But Snoke is using the riveting temptation with the Dark, because we all want to being charge, and powerful, and handle everything and everyone. And Kylo seems to want it more then most, maybe because, like his grandfather, he is infinitely blessed with abilities of the Force.

Also, Kylo must have trained with Luke. Luke was very likely his master. And Kylo was very likely the one who destroyed all Luke's work, and the apprentices. But why? What made him do it? Simply getting back at his parents for sending him away because he was a little fart as a child?

I don't think so. The guy has issues. non of which are simple or petty. If he was ANYTHING like his grandfather, he probably had a cockiness about him, and that, plus Han's sass, YIKES. And ... *ahem* ...he has a slight anger problem.

So, was it just fickle, a momentarily thought out rant? Or had he planed it?

This all smells like the stink of revenge.


We basically have  Ben "major sassy, rad grandpa Vader's force skills, anger management much" Solo.

(gosh, try and say that one)

I don't even know, I really don't. It's all confusing and new, and I was impressed, I'll tell yah that much. And this turned out to be mostly just questions no one will know uuunnnnttill .... this is where I'd say "oh well, guess we'll all have to wait until the next movie is out", BUT NOOOOOOOOOO.

Chew on all that for a while, people.

Bye.

Let's face it, this blog is nothing but over-thought emotional rants.

Then I realize it's named "The Confessions of An Emotionally Compromised Teenage Girl" FOR. A. REASON.

I HAVE FAILED MY FIRST AND ONLY MAJOR FANDOM.

*crys like a dying penguin*

Loki day was on the 31st.

AND I FREAKIN' POSTED NOTHING.

DON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME.

(that has to be my slogan, but seriously DO. NOT. LOOK. AT. ME)

*dies*

HE'S SO PLEASED WITH HIS LITTLE SELF.

Lt. Commander Data appreciation post

BECAUSE I MISSED DATA DAY.
DON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME, I'M TRYING NOT TO BE UPSET OVER THIS ...

And what ya'll who have'nt watched this stupid show will think of me, I DON'T EVEN KNOW.

So, I'm going to introduce him.

 (my humor gets ridiculous, just skip this post, hmm?)

HERE WE GOOOoooo ...

This is Data, pronounced "dayyy-taa" not data. It's confusing and if your British it's even more

confusing, so whatever.

He is a Soong-type android, designed to assist humanity. Yet, all he wants is that humanity,

he simply can't have so he strives for it with all he's worth.

It's unbelievably sad.

HE DOES'NT EVEN HAVE EMOTIONS. AND THAT JUST MAKES EVERYONE ... EMOTIONAL. SO EMOTIONS ARE FLYING HIGH AS ELPHABA ON HER DEFYING GRAVITY RAMPAGE, YOU NERDS.

This is Geordi LaForge and they are best space bros, getting stuck on the Holodeck and one of them

gets electrocuted in EVERY EPISODE, basically. But it's all cool. He ends up fixing Data

when he gets broken ... also, every episode basically.

He's adorable in every sense ya'll.

Excluding the episode where he's all "I Tarzan" and he has 0% of his memory and 100% of his charm.

EYEBROWS. This android be sassy.

He's a SASSdroid.

OH, look, I'm so punny.

I'll stop.

But, really, he got skills, MAD SKILLS.

His Sherlock is the stuff of legend and myth, not to mention the accent is SPOT ON.

True beauty.

He's dork. A real dork.

In Defense of Loki Odinson ~ a rant by TheAbilaine

Alright.
Let's get one thing straight everyone.

I'm a Loki fan.

Yea, THE HORROR, I know. So, before the eye rolling starts, let me say something.

I am a fan of Loki, not only his alter ego Tom Hiddleston. I admire Mr. Hiddleston IMMENSELY, not only for his Loki, but for his other work in film. And he's honestly one of the most charming men among today's actors, excluding the fact his appearance is aesthetically pleasing. So. Just so that is crystal clear.

Now,

For those of you with weak constitutions and no sense of justice ...
This is going to be a long, potentially dangerous Loki rant.

You are warned, so don't say I did'nt warn yah ...

(wait, is'nt that a smidgen of a Taylor Swift song? no, shutting up this is about Loki, not a blonde singer who says she's a country singer but we all know she's pop, TOTES not bad-mouthing her, JUS' SAYIN')

Great. One minute into this post and already I've insulted someone.

OOOAKKKAAAAAYYYY.

I did mention this was dangerous, wHY DON'T I LISTEN TO MYSELF?!?!?

Anyways. Without further emotional sputtering, let the rant ensue.



1. Why is Loki considered the bad-guy?

Pretty obvious here, everyone.

Most every saw him first in The Avengers, and not in his "debut", Thor. Or, you knew what the deal from, from the comics. Which, if you haven't seen it, you're like ... 'What's up with this psycho with greasy Christmas tree hair and sleep deprivation?"

"Likable" was not the word for him in the Avengers.

Actually, I did'nt "like" him the first time I watched it. (*insert loud goat screams of people who know about this obsession*)

BUT HERE'S THE CHEESE.

If you don't understand where he's coming from, you won't feel pity on him.
Pity is for someone when they've done the wrong things for the right reasons. We forgive them, we feel pity on them because we, many times, would react the same way. But with Loki, it's harder.


He is being selfish. He could've chosen to do the right thing, though, the wrong thing was done to him. He shouldn't have been lied to, just to be spared, and I'm not justifying his actions on this. I can't.

And, that's what gets me irritated about Odin.
Everyone's like "I HATE HIM" and "HE WAS SO MEAN TO POOR LOKI."
Yes, he was, but I don't hate him. He honestly loved Loki. He had to have. He chose to bring a Frost Giant's child, the sworn enemy of Asgard, into his home, to raise him as his own, fully aware of what he was undertaking. He did'nt tell Loki to, indeed, spare him, but it only hurt Loki more.

But what would've you done? The same, most likely.

Loki has been lied to about what he is, what he always thought he was. If you suddenly realized your mom and dad weren't mom and dad, if you weren't, suddenly, human ... I mean, COME ON??!?!

Wouldn't you feel worthless? Wouldn't you feel as if there were no purpose for you in the universe, but to be bad? Because you were only the spawn of a monster. Only. A. Monster.

Loki's angry and confused when he learns this, and he becomes hopeless, to an extent.
In his mind, he is unlovable and it blinds him. He knows Frigga and Odin and Thor love him, but he's not the same and he doesn't think he should be loved. So, he's trying to prove, to himself and himself alone, that he is good. That he can rule. That he can meet expectation, just like his brother, Thor.
And, yet, to achieve that, he must get rid of Thor, leading to his attempt to send the Destroyer to Earth (in Thor). At this point, it wasn't an attack on Earth or anyone but Thor. Because Thor was real, he was the real son. I think he was jealous of Thor all the time and it took this to let all that come out.

But, he does love Thor. He says it twice in movie, he says never doubt it. They are brothers, whether they have the same blood or are the same race.

And it wasn't right. He knew that. But anger and jealously and confusion were drowning him in a maddening, desperate attempt to simply ... do it.

"I could've done it, father."

That was his last plea, his apology, his ... justification, of all he'd done.

And when Odin simply says "No, Loki,", he has NOTHING left.

It's all gone. he couldn't handle the rejection. He had no wish to go on and no hope of doing so.
So, he falls from the rainbow bridge.



2. Why did Loki attack Earth?


  There has been so much argumentative banter over this, so let me tell you a thing.

I am CONVINCED, without doubt, he was being controlled.
I've read arrangement after argument about this and it all leads to that.

And remember Thanos's "Hey, how's world domination going, buddy?".
 Didn't exactly look like a comradeship going on there. He wasn't equal with Loki, he was almost threatening him. I MEAN LOOK. He's scared, he doesn't look pumped up to kill some humans and conquer the world.

he's crying .

Because, he had no thoughts of revenge when he fell. He quite literally let go of Thor's hand.


Which, brings me to my ultimate question. Where did Loki fall? Where did he land? And what happened after he did, somehow, stop falling, hmm? And how did he meet Thanos and team up with him and his army of mutant aliens?

And, the 'glow stick of destiny". What about that thing? Notice, he never puts that thing down. The energy, magic, whatever in it can control the people he touches, why couldn't it have done the same thing to him? Because his eyes sure do change a lot ... maybe he's fighting it with his own magic but he can't win. He keeps fighting it and he can. not. win.

"It's too late..."

He regrets all he's done, I think. He doesn't want Thor dead, he doesn't want any of this ...

I mean, look at him. He looks like he has
in slept in months...

And, you can argue and say Loki knew Thanos and the Chintari were at the end of the void beneath him (when he fell), but why would he have faked trying to take over Asgard, so long, if getting at Earth, at Jane, at what his brother loved most, was his main goal?

 He wouldn't have even been able to plan that far ahead, seeing he realized it only when Thor returned.

I think that pretty much sums up my thoughts on The Avengers.






3. What about Loki in Thor: The Dark World?

How much time passed?

So.

He's been rotting in a cell, for no one can guess how long, ever since he was returned to Asgard. I mean, his trial hadn't even happened. Some significant time had to have passed since what happened on Earth.

Thusly, he's probably been brooding. He's been feeling sorry for himself. And, in light of the thought that he was "controlled" or "forced" to attack Earth, wouldn't he have some cause-and-effect reactions?

And it looks as though he's been put in solitary confinement. You can't tell me it did'nt have an affect on him.
 The effects of solitary confinement:

“actively psychotic and/or acutely suicidal.” Grassian has since concluded that solitary can cause a specific psychiatric syndrome, characterized by hallucinations; panic attacks; overt paranoia; diminished impulse control; hypersensitivity to external stimuli; and difficulties with thinking, concentration and memory. Some inmates lose the ability to maintain a state of alertness, while others develop crippling obsessions.

(source of the above)


I'd like to point out, though, I am not justifying Loki's actions. But I am asking you to examine the facts.

"Am I not your mother?"
"You're not..."

 He can't help but love her, he can't help but see her as his mother because she always has been.
 When Frigga dies, the only one, who, since he was returned to Asgard, did'nt give up on him ... he looses hope. He breaks, he shatters in more ways then he would ever admit.
She knew him in ways even his brother did'nt. She's the one who loved him more then them all, and when she's just completely gone, he has little else to live for. His, once, father has sentenced him to be the monster he was and his brother distrusts him.

  Yet, I think he's more angry then anything, at this point.
  And that's why he yells, "I am Loki of Jotunheim!"and not Asgard.
Asgard was no longer his home, he literally did'nt care anymore, The love he'd known, was gone. He would've watched it burn, and wouldn't have lifted a pinky to try and stop it, I think.

 BUT.
 Does he really die? No, obviously. Maybe? NO ONE KNOWS. But will I stop defending him? Nope.

 I rest my case.


(do not use anything from this post without my express permission or tagging/crediting me)

*ATTENTION*

Does anyone have any suggestions for a March post series? Literally, just hit me with everything yah got, I'm open to most anything ...

 SPOILERS.

Basically the entirety of The Force Awakens is already on the Enternet, gee, tHANKYOUVERYMUCH, 

people have sneezed it EVERYWHERE, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO AVOID SEEING IT,

HMMMMMMM?!???!!

Nothin' like a INSANE Friday night of making fandom edits, listening to obscure old jazz songs and strawberry icecream floats.

People say I'm WILD.

*clears throat*

"HEEEEEERE'S TO THE NEEEERDOOoossss ..."

I'll stop.

"Now, go and hug Thor, and tell him you're sorry ..."

"... but, MOOOOOM, he started it...!"

The dazzling cast of Star Trek: The Next Generation ... (photo edit to me)

I have found something amazing.

I just spent 2 and a half minutes of my life scrEAMING in intense joy because of THIS.

AND IT WAS A FAKE. 

SOMEONE SHOOT ME.
In the face.

... aaaaaaaaand, WHY DANIEL RADCLIFFE? WHYY?!?!

coffee is hot bean juice.

you're welcome.

(and, no, this is not fangirl related, but, WAIT, yes it is, I can fangirl over coffee thankyouverymuch, good bye)

Dunno 'bout ya'll, but I'm the second one ...

source 

Welcome to my kingdom, people.

Here's comes the nerdy.

*drains mug of coffee*